This post is completely dedicated to my favourite Korean boyband -DBSK, especially Uknow Yunho. As a fan of 6 years, this was the second time i had ever attended their concert, after Hongkong based concert. So, my excitement could make me lose control somehow. This post concerns with matter of language. So, you are held accountable for what you have read lol.
For Yunho sshi, who took 6 years of my youth,
Dear Yunho,
I am actually running on empty in terms of finance and health. It has been for 2 years that I began to catch up with practical life. My circle of life revolves around working environment, colleague affairs, fear of deadline, fear of being fired, and other gossips. It is likely that I may forget you. I barely log in my Twitter account to keep up with my Twitter timeline to hear about you. As for Facebook, I subscribed only 1 Fanpage. After spending around 10 minutes, I have to go back to work. That’s my routine. Just so you know that, on April 30th- May 1st, I went to Dubai, which was the first time I sponsored myself a hardcore trip. It came as no surprise that that trip really cost me a big deal. I did not have enough budget to afford a good seat. The big matter was that I was freakingly occupied with my job. I delayed buying tickets to next week. It turned out to be that I had to choose from-the-behind seats. I did scream my lung out: ”Goddamn! Who do I have to sleep with around here to get double A zone tickets?”
Our ticket ^^
It was not my concern though. I had a feeling that I was not crazy for you like before. Around 2 years, I could not feel the hype when I first saw you with “Keep your head down”. Everyone grows up. When they do, they leave. I was not the same girl whose thought was “me and DBSK against the world” anymore. You and me had walked together in a long journey. Then I took my turn to step into a new and practical world. I had to carry financial burden and take care of myself. When hearing about your Thailand – based upcoming concert, I texted to Cheese, who would be my companion to the concert. Below was briefly our conversation:
Me: “DBSK will hold a concert in Thailand. Wanna go?”
Cheese: “Yub. When?”
Me: “May, 30th. Is H&M available in Thailand?”
Cheese: “Of course”
Me: “How about F21?”
Cheese: “Yes. Much cheaper than Singapore”
Me: “Me likey. Go”
Yeah, I do love shopping (not seriously a shoppaholic), which was my main motivation for this Thailand trip. Yeah, no excuse for me.
I got to admit that I was not really a good fan. I was trying to navigate my affection to you. When hearing about your August enlistment, I swore that I did not talk to anyone for a whole 5 minutes despite their efforts to talk with me. You know, I had a driving test to get license and the toughest part was to “climb” on the bridge, which I almost failed. Actually, I was under pressure, if I had failed to pass my driving test, my parents would have not let me go to Thailand. When I thought it was the end and nothing I could do, I thought of your face and held on to it. You told me to keep on my feet on brake pads and then my car successfully passed the bridge. Other than that, everything was just fine. You know that, I almost bit my tongue when knowing that you would shoot a film and release Solo album? It was really hard to be a human being. I booked concert and flight tickets, my wallet was empty. There was no other way, except for using salary I worked as a freelance. So, it was clearly proved that I still love you so much. Never doubt my love!
The concert was announced to begin at 17 PM on Saturday. That morning, me and Cheese departed from Tan Son Nhat to arrive at Thailand (Sorry, I could not remember a single word in Thailand airport’s name). I was not really in a good mood, it could be that I had sickness symptoms. According to our plan, when we reached Thailand, it was around 12 PM, then, within 30 minutes, we would be at our hotel, find something to eat, take a short nap then rush to Impact Arena at 15 PM. But everything did not turn out the way as expected. Or it could be God that created obstacles to challenge one’s persistence? I met an asshole taxi driver, and did not have enough rest to take. Generally, my condition was not that good. And OMG, Impact Arena was packed with people queuing a long line and a lot of hassles. It was very wrong to think that I was the only one fond of you. Your popularity was no joke. I got to the line to get my physical ticket and found myself surrounded by Japanese people. Yeah. I saw Chinese, and Indonesian… but not Vietnamese.
This is me ^^
Cheese (LOL – a non fan)
I was perfectly delighted when finally getting my two ordered tickets. Me and Cheese run to a big electric screen that displayed you in 2009 – 2010 era when I was still crazy for your hotness. But when there was my turn, Daesung’s picture jumped out of nowhere. Super mad! Unlike the previous concert in Hongkong, we arrived 45 minutes earlier, so, Official Goods counter still left some items for me, except for brochures and lightsticks. I bought two bracelets for me and Cheese and stationery set for myself exclusively. When returning to Vietnam, I put in my bookshelf.
There was a Déjà vu feeling in me when we entered Arena. I meant the U-shaped stage, red seats and cool air condition. I thought two seats I ordered could make it hard for us to see clearly but they were not that bad and rather close to the stage. I hated “counting back” part because I almost vomited when screaming my lung out. It dawned on me that I was not that old and still had a lot of energy to play hard, which was also the best part I liked when joining a concert, “smells like teenage spirits”.
“Catch me” was thought to be the “main boss” in the concert, but DBSK performed it right on the get-go. Before entering the inside hall, I purchased stupid and super useless stuff but not lightstick – the most important item. So, I felt like nothing to do in the concert. Then, I had no option but to wave my cell phone. Later, there were two lightsticks – green and blue – was put underneath my chairs before. I could not tell how happy I was when discovering it. As for this matter, I truly apologized for red-ocean Cassies made for you.
Tist0ry concert (I am so sorry for mistyping this word for a hundred times. I was not even able to speak it) was a showcase of Tense album’s songs, from “Smoky heart”, “Beside”, “Double Trouble”, “Stepping” to “Your Man”… It was really good that I knew more songs than “Catch me” album. I remembered melodies, so, able to mumble along with songs. So, you see, I am still your fan!
Mixed together with songs were video that satisfied me in terms of visual and content. It was generally about Changmin, a 20th-century intellectual and Yunho-appearing in a futuristic world. They live a thousand years apart from each other but things they share in common are muscular bodies, irresistible hotness and super flawless girlfriends, namely Cassiopedia. It could be that I did not have to mention as audience really made a big noise upon seeing that renowned star. There were short “fan communication” so-called breaks. You and Changmin spoke in Korean with Thailand translation. Me and Cheese did not say anything but deep down in each other’s eyes, I knew each other’s intention to say “I know, I die”. When you rapped in Thailand, “Khap khap khap…”, I swore to God that I laughed in my ass off. DBSK’s muscular image in “Keep your head down” era has always stayed with me, but I am so glad that DBSK is flexible with their style, which is so refreshing. With the presence of female dancers, jaw-dropping background stages and cutting edge audio effect, I found you even sexier than Before You Go’s “We gonna make you slow down”. The stage was filled with feminist. I meant it was not too girl-ish but smooth, and smexy in general (smart + sexy).
It is debatable that Max is a stan attractor. Two years ago, when I came Hongkong concert with Janny, she got heels over heads for Max, that time, Cheese was not an exception. She kept on praising Max’ high note abilities and his 6 pack body. She was in nine cloud with Max’ solo “Heaven’s day”, especially with his T-shirt ripping moment that revealed his perfect body. Oh yeah, I admitted that Max took my breath away, leaving me speechless for a moment but I still stayed faithful to my Yunho.
Come back to my Yunho,
I have been your fan since 2009, but it does not mean that I am fond of clothes you wore on that day, from yellow, sparkling clothes to the pink suite to leopard feature clothes. From your tight leather pants to your Diva pose standing (I thought you would do an excellent job of performing Shinhwa’s This love, but I dislike a hundred times), I could not say a single word. As your fan, the day you’d enlist would leave an incurably traumatic pain in me but later, I learned that it could be a big opportunity to help you regain your 6 pack body. Cheese repeatedly shouted to me face “Your Yunho is so chubby”. That was really hard for me to take. Maybe she may have been possessed and blindfolded by Max, so I told her to shut the hell up. I actually was torn between mixed feeling, she was right somehow. Before the concert, I did expect a solo from you that I could jerk off just like “Honey Bunny Funny” performance 2 years ago that successfully made my pants wet. But “Bang” was turned out to be a dancing song with fast beat and hardcore move. Although it was not my style, I did enjoy and have a good time.
But the camping stage gained my love for you. You looked super cute with your short, white shirt and sport shoes (I saw your scar in your leg and could not help feeling pitiful to you). You, 30-year-old man, on the stage, looked like a Head boy in school. I never doubted your stage presence and your innate ability to connect with audience. It was so lovely to see you holding a micro to a band member. I was mumbling along a song that I did not have a clue “It’s your love, your love, blah blah blah…” as if I had known it before. Then, I learned that it is called “You are my melody”. It was too way back in 2009 when I was still your anti fan LOL.
When listening to a few seconds of Off-road (Running on Empty) in Make your move, I quickly decided that it was my jam. It could be that the concert was specifically designed for Off-road lovers like me as we did have two versions of this song, VCR and actual performance. I was so crazy in love with that song to the point that I sang a whole song in English (My limited brain did not allow me to remember a single Korean word). As an ordinary girl with two abilities of transforming oxygen into carbon dioxide and getting under my bosses’ skin, I could not believe that I could dance that hard and synchronously. Good songs never die young. I did enjoy “Crazy love”, “B.U.T”, and recently “Spellbound” (Cheese proudly said to me that she knew this song), and “Something”. And OMG. You did perform “Keep Your Head Down”. We could make it so clear when doing “Keep your head down” gesture. The military dance got me so excited and made me believe that it could be performed in the military too. Yunho ah, you are so badass! All performances chilled me to the bones, and of course, brought me unforgettable experience!
When the concert was about to end, DBSK did have a small talk with fans. Once again, you talked in Korean and there was a Thailand interpretation, which I had no clue what the heck was going! Then Cheese whispered in my ear “The girl standing next to me is crying”. I was like “Whatt???”. Then, it came to my acknowledgement that you were talking about your upcoming enlistment and it would take around 2 years later that we could meet again.
Your back – When i first saw you, i fell in love with your back. Becase of you, i find that a sexy man must have a sexy back.
I learned about your actual enlistment day right on my birthday but I calmly accepted it. I knew that day would come sooner or later. You know, I had experience of waiting, so waiting for another two years is nothing to me. We just go on our separate paths temporarily but in the end, we will walk the same road just like we did before. That day, you would be a 30-year-old adjusshi with muscular body and I would be chasing my dream of becoming a successful content writer. That why’s I did not cry and would never cry.
You are still my inspiration, so it is likely that I continue writing fictions about you LOL.
The day after, we did have a day for shopping. Oh heavenly. Shopping! I am going to die for you someday.
Bonus: Bangkok by night
Note that: there were some pictures i searched from the Internet. All pictures without tags were taken by me.
